Ch-ch-ch-CHANGES
My stomach felt like a big hand was squeezing it, the tightness rose to my heart… up to my eyes. It was momentous, something was shifting and it was bigger than anything I could have ever imagined… I felt as if I discovered a parallel universe and I was stepping inside cautiously leaving behind the world I knew and loved before. It was a gargantuan holistic experience. My emotions were bombastic and inexplicable….my body vibrated and my mind simply could not comprehend.
The month of May 2022 was cram packed: a trip to my birth place: Jamaica and reconnecting with family, a long weekend 30th Penn Alum reunion another long weekend for my son’s graduation with family in tow, planning, purchasing and packing for all the food at the airbnb - feeding the masses over the weekend…. while covering family and biz basic responsibilities during the shortened weeks…. plus 3 house guests upon our return, my son came back a day later than us but could not finish the task of emptying out his room. I felt something a movin’ within and I volunteered to go up to Buffalo again on my own to finish packing, cleaning his room and hand in the keys….
Big changes, come with ritual in any religion. Our spirit and our mind needs this, big time, to process this major life events whatever they maybe. My soul was guiding me, the 7 hour car ride, the cleaning the packing was my ritual. I am a ferocious Mama bear. My children and how I can be of service to them guide them to be fully themselves and navigate the rough, easy, glorious waters of life… THIS was my north star. ALL my decisions for 27 years were guided with this responsibility that I was, it seemed, born to fulfill. And then, my youngest graduated as an engineer from college. My life lurched into it’s next stage.
The rubber gloves and scrubbing were my yoga as I cleaned the room, packed, carried, loaded the car. I cannot drive at night because of my astigmatism. The clean airy beautiful room, gorgeous day and view from his window, the peace…the fatigue. I stayed over, called the fam to let them know. Meditated with a mudra. Ordered fab vegan food to seal the deal. The peace vs. the mayhem at home with 3 extra house guests plus my son was delicious. The next morning I found myself double, triple checking the kitchen, the drawers, the closets, the bathroom, the cleaning job I did - then doing more, taking out garbage. I just - could - not - leave.
When all was done, truly, nothing else to be done… I stayed in the room, closed the door behind me. I stood with the enormity of the moment. I traveled through it because there was not other way. My body could not hold it all my higher self, spirit, the Universe stepped in to guide me…. I practiced pranayama and prayed for my children, for myself for us all stepping out of one world and into another co-creating with the Divine the rest of our lives. I opened the door behind me and visualized stepping into the next era as I stepped out of the room and locked the door behind me.
Changes, major changes are register in our bodies and minds. It is beneficial to practice yoga, meditation for these times of our lives. Yin Yoga can be particularly powerful I have found. In the case above I rolled out all the stops, cleaning, packing, road trip, yoga, meditation - upon arrival I continued foot massages, acupuncture and chiropractic care….. You do you, and if you’ve ever felt this way before you are not alone!
From personal experience - TAKE - TIME to process
NURTURE yourself, body, mind and spirit
This stage for me was almost 3 decades, a graceful shift into the new époque will take time because self-care and self-love dictates it.
